the brief beauty that the life you knew is finally over

You leave your apartment to go to work

It’s like any other Sunday, school

starts back Monday but your body

 is aching against the clock

In the shower you hastily take before you leave

you stare down at the body you once hated,

covered in the same soap and self-loathing,

you admit it’s still proof that things can change

As you walk head down to your car

you look up long enough to notice that outside

 in the lawn of your shitty apartment, the grass

 is the greenest you’ve ever seen

On this sunny February morning,

You can finally feel your jaw unlock

The cold chills on your spin dissipate

And you live in this moment

You imagine yourself running through

Green grass like that, running and spinning

You even smile to yourself as you pass,

Keeping it to yourself as a sweet secret

The vision sticks with you, but you can’t remember

whether it’s a dream or a memory but as you drive

to your dead-end job, forever running against the clock

It is still a brief and beautiful reminder

That the life you once knew, is finally over.